The last questions dealt with how deployment changed you as a person. Now, how did it change you as a parent? Let me explain...
Gunner and I had almost 6 years as parents before the deployments started.
During that time, he was almost always home, and we were busy raising the girls, taking them to activities, lots of family time.
I felt like I had it under control. I felt like I was a good mom.
Since Gunner started deploying though, I feel like it has affected me as a mom. I have less patience. I am more overwhelmed. I never have enough time in each day.
I do know that is is quality, not quantity. I do know that I do everything in my power to make sure my kids will be okay. I do know that I do more than the average person, and include my children in almost everything that we do.
I also know that it's not easy to do alone, especially when their dad is halfway around the world and you have a lot more questions to answer and a lot more worries.
I think that if all these repeated year long deployments had not occurred, that maybe I would be a better mom? Don't get me wrong, I'm not a bad mom, but maybe I could have been better. Or maybe everyone else is a perfect mom and deployments didn't make a lick of a difference? Hopefully there is someone else out there...please?