Part of the problem with deployments, is that there is a lot of sitting around and waiting. There's only so many times you can say "I love you" or "I'll miss you", and you spend a lot of time sitting there not having to say a word. At this point, I can rest my head on Gunner's shoulder, he'll put his arm around me, and we both understand.
At one point I needed to get out of the stuffy company, so I went outside where I found a Soldier talking to his buddy and his buddy's wife. The Soldier was telling his buddy that he just didn't have any words left to say to his family, and that while they kept calling, he kept blowing them off. Probably hard for his family, but I can understand that.
Anyway, after the Soldier's buddy and his wife went back inside the company, the Soldier got on his cell phone and called his mom. I couldn't help but listen into the conversation, okay, so I was eavesdropping on this 21 year old kid that was about to head out.
Soldier: Hey Mom, sorry I don't call, I just don't have anything to say.
More chit chat between mom and son.
Soldier: I was just talking to my best friend and his wife. He's got it hard Mom, he's got a wife and a baby and she has two other kids from a previous marriage. He's got a family, and he has to leave them. I know you don't want to hear this mom, but my job over there is to make sure that he comes back to his family.
Soldier: I'd do anything mom, anything to make sure he comes home. I don't have kids, my job is to keep him safe.
At this point I had to leave before I started sobbing. This kid is 21 years old and is more worried about making sure his buddy comes home than himself. You can't get much more selfless than that.
When you enter post, there is the Soldier's Creed. The kids like to read it while we drive by. Last night I saw yet another man, that lived by it.